Candid Kate Playground

lina_ame @ 2007-11-06T17:02:00

... everything wrong.
the head is full of thoughts.
and the dull feeling I do everything wrong.
I do not know ... what could be done. if you can change anything ...
nobody is to blame for something, it's how it is.
only too bad that I believed in this love.

... I wish I could do something for you.
tell me something ... speak to me. Please do not leave me alone.
I have trusted you ... I wish you could see what goes on in me ...

. But I will not betray. a second confession
I not have the heart. not make life harder
not fall to the load. it was always. I forget everything.
the dreams, the love. for I see that this does not make any sense to exestieren
. I would have never thought that I care so much. ...

wrong ... everything.
the words, all lies. I would love to tell you what is really going on.
but ... what good is it if my feelings have no meaning?
not even I myself need them, what for, if they can not be answered? ...
had perhaps I my chance, but I missed it.
might have it a-can-we give, but this one was missing.

... I do not know what to do.
I can not forget.
again, hide, run away ... nice smile, common questions and incorrect answers.
I hate lies, but the truth is ridiculous. I love you and can not tell you.
... yet there is no sense at all. everything wrong ...

... and the days dissolve slowly
and every night and every day I look at my window
pass people.
try and find you between many
and do not know why I do this.
because this feeling is pointless .... I split
into two different persons,
two completely different.
one will break at the end. the true one.
and the other is dissolving, as clouds of smoke
from my window. between the fingers, hiding tears,
slow steps of the clock,
where I want to hear yours.
it all makes no sense ...